Hospicing Modernity by Vanessa Machado De Oliveira

Chapter 2.8: Returning Home

Introduction

In Chapter 8, the author, Vanessa Machado De Oliveira, reminisces about her indigenous grandmother, Vitalina, and the stories and predictions she left behind. Vitalina had warned that the "house of modernity" was ephemeral, a prediction that would echo in Vanessa's life as she faced her own transformative experiences. A critical car accident served as Vanessa's rite of passage, initiating her into a deeper understanding of indigenous worldviews and the vulnerabilities within modernity.

The Nature of Rites of Passage

The author outlines rites of passage as consisting of three primary stages: severance, the liminal phase, and the return. These stages involve a disruption of normality, confrontation with vulnerability and potential danger, followed by a rebirth and integration of the lessons learned. Unfortunately, modernity often discourages such intense transformative experiences, promoting a safe, entitled way of life that avoids genuineness and hardship. Whereas traditional rites of passage offer no guarantees of survival or comfort, modernity seeks to provide a controlled, predictable environment, stripping away the depth of true transformational growth.

Severance: The Accident

At twenty-one, Vanessa had a near-fatal car accident. She details the incident with graphic clarity, focusing on the sense of disembodiment she felt and the profound indifference of a passerby who failed to assist her. This incident created a severance, a pause in her life's narrative, an abrupt distancing from her previous reality. She describes the poignant moments of human ineptitude and detachment she witnessed while contending with severe trauma and the raw understanding that garnered through agonizing pain and the neglect she faced from medical professionals. The accident carved the first deep cut into her understanding of existence.

Threshold: Depression

The accident's aftermath led to a struggle with depression, especially following the birth of Vanessa's second child. She reflects on societal conditions that force individuals into numbness to cope with life's cruelty, pushing them toward indifference or escapism. Balancing the brink of departure from life, Vanessa recounts seeking answers and teachings from her indigenous relatives. Rather than direct solutions, they provided a way to process the experiences she endured, adding meat to the bones of her understanding of existence and the universe.

The Long Return Home: The Body as the Land

Decades in the making, Vanessa's long return involved reconciling with her body and embracing it as an extension of the land. Indigenous narratives provided her with both the metaphorical and literal teachings that cultivated a profound sense of grounding. This grounding wasn't just about developing a robust individual self but about rooting oneself in the broader network of life and recognizing responsibility, accountability, and connectivity to the land. As Vanessa approached the culmination of her rite of passage, her perspective shifted from a desire to transcend bodily existence to integrating into it fully, recognizing 'home' as a state of being that encompasses the whole of the self in the material world.

Exercise and Conclusion

The chapter concludes with reflective questions for the reader to consider their own life's rites of passage and the teachings they have distilled from experiences of betrayal and hardship. Vanessa encourages a thoughtful examination of how these personal transformations relate to a larger societal passage—the dying of modernity—and challenges the reader to ponder how their individual learnings might contribute to a collective understanding and preparedness for this significant cultural shift.